Monday, February 25, 2013

Waiting for the Finish Line

So as many of you know I have had my CNA for about 2 years now. I have tried hard to get a job but it is just difficult here in Logan, UT. Anyway, the time has finally come and I have finally gotten a job working at a retirement home. I am seriously so excited. This is one of those moments where you get to thinking and I just realized that sometimes it is worth the wait. There is a reason why it took me until now to finally get this job. I know that I needed to go through the experiences that I did leading up to this occasion. I know that this happens with anything you are waiting for in life. When it comes to waiting for love, it is worth the wait to not settle and let your heart go to someone who truly deserves you. When it comes to school, there is no need to rush through your education. Take your time to get your degree that wait could be worth it in the end. Waiting sometimes can be a huge blessing. I know that it was for me today. Someone posted this on facebook today and I really liked it.  This is so true. Sometimes we need to take that time to not think constantly of what it is we are waiting for and just focus more on what we need to do before we get there. It is not the finish line we should be so worried about, it is the road that leads us there that really should take up most of our concern. Learn to enjoy life and enjoy those waiting moments. Because when the wait is over. When that one thing you can check off your list is done. Then, then it was all worth it. I know to many people me getting this job really doesnt seem like that big of a deal. But its just one of those little examples of how the wait can be worth it and can be such a huge blessing. So dont just stare at the finish line focusing on how far away it is. Look at the road ahead and take each moment step by step. As my favorite Christmas Movie says "Just put one foot in front of the other." <3

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Its a Good Life

So today is Valentines Day. As today slowly approached I wasnt too thrilled about it. Nobody ever wants that lonely reminder that their single. But tonight, as I should be doing my math homework and studying for my test tomorrow :/ All I can seem to do is reflect on how grateful I am for all of the many people I have surrounding me. Today is my thankful day. Because as I look at who I love in my life... I think of these folks.  My little sissy Emma: a.k.a. Ed, Emster, Emma Lou, Lou Bear, Edna. Whatever we call her she is always her beautiful loving self. I am so thankful everyday for the love I feel for this little girl! Well not so little anymore. She is driving now and I am shocked at how fast she is growing. No matter how old she gets she will always be my little sister, crossing the street with a blind man and smacking random ladies bums in Target. This is one amazing girl who seriously is growing into a woman I seriously admire :) Thank you Emma for being so great and always being you <3
 Missy Kaye Bevan!! Weve gone through our ups and downs but in the end that all doesnt matter anymore. She is such an amazing girl and one who has ALWAYS been there for me. Shes accepted me for who I am and never tried to turn me into someone else. She really has been my rock for the last 2 years that I have known her. Des Moines, Iowa is seriously going to be getting their hands full with this one for the next 18 months. I honestly could not imagine a better missionary. Cause she has been the best example to me and I couldnt ask for a better friend!
 Well this picture just says it all about the Baumans :) Love them and their friendship to me for the last few years... even when theyve been married! They are so much fun and are always there to listen to my drama, problems, and gossip. Their there to give me a hug when I need it and laugh when Im being stupid. Best couple I know <3
 Well Ive already done a whole post on this little gem but I am thankful for her today. And am so happy for her as she is about to embark on her own marriage here soon. Thank you Angela for your AMAZING friendship for the last 17 years. Time truly does fly but I am glad to have had you by my side all this time!
 Ms. Brooke Beckstead is seriously the greatest! Miss her so much while she is away in Hawaii. But so thankful for phones cause I dont know what I would do if I could not talk to her on a regular basis. She is by far my rock and it will always freak me out the way we seem to be going through the same situations at the same time. I am so thankful for our times together and look forward to having her back by my side this summer :)
 Well this is my family. The entire family believe it or not! I honestly dont think I can put in words right here how much I love them all and how much I am thankful for them! They are all so amazing and I dont know what I would do without them. Thank you for dealing with me and always being there for me! I seriously have the most amazing family and couldnt ever ask for anything or anyone better!
 Ive been so blessed throughout my life to not just have my family, but I have my non family (my friends). To me its all family. Because those close girlfriends are just the sisters that God wasnt able to give me. So they became my friends. We fight, we disagree, we dont speak at times, but we always love one another and support eachother. So Happy Valentines Day to all of you! Today just would not be the same if I didnt have you in my life :)

A Day of No Love....

Oh Valentines Day.... what a day this is. Well I know how I prefer to spend this romantic holiday! With my best friend some sappy movies and work. I know Im a sucker for the romance. In all reality Im not against this holiday, but Im not for it either. I just hate the fact that as much as nobody wants it to it is "Single Awareness Day." Like Hello World! I have no plans on Valentines Day because I dont have any Love Interest. Its depressing. And then there are the couples... I mean isnt this what anniversaries are for? The one day a year you can be all sappy and lovey dovey? I just dont really get the whole point of Valentines Day.
                                                    Dance with god
All that I can seem to think about is how I need to remember to not try and rush things. Even on these days when you are forced to realize that at this current moment you dont have a certain someone.... you are never alone. I love this saying above. Since I was a little girl I grew up dancing with my dad, you know when he puts you on his toes. So when I read this I cant help but think of Heavenly Father as just that, my father. And Im his little girl dancing on his toes not ready to let go. I am his little girl and though he watches me go through many different heart breaks and trials, i believe he will let the Perfect man cut in. I believe that someday someone will walk into my life and then I will realize why it never worked out with anyone else. Today... on the day of lonely hearts, Ill cuddle up with my 3 Valentines: Netflix, Chocolates, and my Sweats. And I wont be sad. The only reason why I wont be sad is because I know that there will be a time here someday soon when I wont have to have those as my Valentines. Because when the right time comes:<3  It will find a way. Heavenly Father will make sure of this. "Love is Patient, Love is Kind, it does not envy it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrong. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves." 1 Corinthians 13:4
Happy Valentines Day Everyone. And dont let today get you down <3